So I’ve been toying with the idea of starting a blog for some time now. I’ve been through a lot of stress in the last seven years and am planning to go through more in the coming years. One of the ways I found I was able to deal with what was happening was by talking about it all. Being frank about my situation. At least by doing that I may be unknowingly helping someone who is feeling a similar stress and is too scared to realise they’re struggling.
So a bit about me first. I want to keep this blog anonymous for now as it does discuss issues in jobs I’ve had and what I’m going through with my current job, which is pretty serious. I’m a single mum to one son and this is where my WordPress name comes from. I refer to him as my shadow; partly because wherever I am you’ll find him not far behind and also because his personality is a mirror of mine. The Bird aspect refers to me as it’s how me and my friend refer to each other. This last Christmas she sent us presents and addressed them to ‘Shadow and Bird’ and it’s kinda just stuck!
While my son is at school or his dad’s I work. Mostly because I have to so ends meet but I work that extra so we are able to afford nice things like holidays and days out. I really enjoy my job and would have liked to progress but recent events mean I am now searching for somewhere else (there will be a blog about this as it deals with discrimination in the workplace). I am also retraining to ensure I am able to get a decent foot on a decently-paid career ladder.
I dealt with PND on my own for three years after my son was born, exacerbated by the mental abuse I received from my husband and told nobody. These are things I openly discuss now as I believe if it helps someone who is suffering, or to recognise someone else who is suffering, then it’s done a lot of good.
So what to expect from this blog? A whole load of being blunt! Parenthood is the most amazing thing in the world but it’s also the hardest. I want to talk about my PND and mental abuse and how I dealt with it, how it affected me as a person and how I feel now on the other side. The trials as a single mum including the discrimination I’ve faced but also the positives.
It won’t all be on a sombre note though. I love to travel and see new things and it seems my son has picked up my wanderlust. I’ve started this to maybe help people who are struggling with things they don’t yet understand but it’ll also be mixed with the things that I enjoy myself or that me and my son enjoy together. Proving there’s life on the other side of any adversity faced. We can all learn to live again and, ultimately, that’s the message I’d love to convey through this.